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Thanks to everyone
With all our hearts we want to thank all of you, dear friends for all your words of love and encouragement. You really have helped us find the strength within ourselved to keep going for Stars sake.
And all the advice you have given has been put to good use, i promise you.
Can anyone imagine how awsome it feels to me to know that my precious cat is being prayed for by people allover America AND in many different countries around the world! WOW!!!
It is breathtaking!
And my words cannot thank you all enough for the outpouring of love.
Going through something this rotten alone is just really a crushing experience that i dont wish on anyone.
But knowing i had all my MCS friends i can turn to has make it less of a lonely time, and more of a learning experience.
Thank you each and everyone.
Now i have what may be some good news or it may be me just getting my hopes up too soon....but it doesnt seem like Stars tumor(i doubt thats what it was now) is comming back!
I am starting to let myself beleive that it was somekind of an ulcer and that it must have healed by now!
But im still praying for healing for her and not getting my hopes all the way up yet! ( but its really looking good!)
I will keep ya'll posted
Very much love
DeltaRose
New pics soon!
Daddy has been feeling a lot better from his surgery and today he was following all of us around with the camera.
So we will all have new pics to post here soon.
He really took a lot of them and our neighbor is going to download them on her computer and put them on a disk for mama, so she can put them up for us.
But daddy finally got on our nerves with that camera.
We tried to tell him enough! And to stop with that flashy thing already!
But he didnt listen, and just kept flashing and saying "awww sooo cute!"
Well, we didnt think it was so cute. We all got pretty mad.
The only one that liked it was our dumb dog, and he is a big old suck up with our daddy anyway.
He is OUR daddy...we had him first!
Sorry we've not been on much
Our daddy just had surgery last Wednesday and since then mama has been running her legs off, and not much time to be online.
But daddy is ok now.
And of course so are we.
Thank you for all the meows of love and support.
Star will be due for another shot probably around the first of the month.
Mama still holds out hope that its an ulcer under her tongue and not a tumor, since it has not grown, and the shot is still working.But Star wont let us look. And mama is scared of anasthesia.
Star is doing GREAT!
If you met her this minute, you would meet a normal cat, and not know anything isnt right with her.
Big hugs to everyone
Star, Bear,Goldie(and mama)
Star,Bear,and Goldie are mad at mom
Star,Bear, and Goldie are mad at mom today because while she was at the vet yesterday she bought their Frontline.
And today they all feel like they were ambushed when she cornered them one by one and applied it to them.Now they all have little spikey hair do's until the stuff dries, and they are not happy kitties.
Of course the resident big chicken,
otherwise known as daddy, had made an excuse and gone next door to see the neighbor while mom was left to do the "dirty work".
Even though Bear and Goldie dont go outside ever, mom thinks its best to keep them protected with Frontline just in case something comes in on the dog. The dog wears K9 AdVantix but she is just being over careful with her babies.
As for them being mad at her, she will break out the kitty goodies and all will be just fine.
GREAT NEWS!!!
This morning at 8 a.m. we took Starr to the vet and this time we got to see a different doctor.
He was very kind and actually took the time to talk to us and explained everything that the other vet had not bothered to tell us.
Like the fact that Star might not have a tumor but maybe it was an ulcer under her tongue!
After all the heartache,worry and fear we have been through thinking our time was limited with this cat and we might very soon have to have her put down.
And living in the fear that the "tumor" might balloon up at any time and we might suddenly be faced with having to have her put down.
Now this vet tells us today that he saw in her file where the other vet had explained to us that they were not sure if she has a tumor or an ulcer and since the shot worked we could just keep getting that and if its an ulcer it should heal up over time.
THE OTHER VET DID NOT TELL US ANY OF THIS!!!
She let us walk out of that office in tears and left
usthinking for the last month that our cat was going to die because we could not afford $3000.00 worth of surgery for a tumor in her mouth and down her throat!
And even though we were at the same vet hospital, this visit cost less than the last one for the exact same services. Well except we were treated better and left feeling much better informed and with new hope in our hearts for our sweet girl.
Tomorrow 8 A.M.
Tomorrow at 8 A.M. Star goes back to the vet for another shot.
Im counting on it to work.
I talked to a lady who works there today and she gave me more information about it.
Its a type of steroid shot that can be given as often as needed and has been known to work repeatedly for quite a long time.
Hearing this gave me a lot of hope.
She also said that we will be seeing a different vet than the one we saw last time, and maybe this one will teach me how to give the shots to Star so i wont have to make her take the long tortureous ride over there anymore.
I know how to give subquetaneous injections in humans, from having to give them to a friend who had blood clots in her legs, and im hoping the vet will be willing to work with us and understand Stars dread of car rides and how upset she gets. If this was a once a year ride to the vet for shots i would just let her tough it out, but every month is a lot.
Heading downhill
Star seems to be heading down hill.
Its getting harder to get her to eat. We open a can of catfood and mush it up until its like the consistency of pudding so she (hopefully) can eat it without choking.
But this time last week she was eating everything in sight, and now we can hardly get her to look at food.
Saturday (the vet appt.) is only 3 days away.
The longest and shortest 3 days of my life.
She is still so lively so much of the time.
She still is just like a very large kitten, bouncing and playing, getting that wild look on her face.
Chasing the toy mousie, and even her own tail.
She is not using the litter box anymore, and must be doing it all outside.
And i suspect she is drinking water from the creek, because we never see her drink from the bowl in here.
Since we found out she has the tumor we have tried to make her an "inside only" cat but she wont have it that way, and throws yowling fits until we give in and let her outside.
She never stays out very long and we never let out if we are not going to stay home until she comes back. And we never leave the house until she is back inside.
She does not climb trees, and she does still like to go to the little pond out front and catch the frogs.
Star..My sweet girl
I just need an outlet for my feeling and fears. Please y'all,ignore all this. I just have to let it out a little. I guess.
Star is so beautiful. and she is such a trooper. She is trying so hard to eat the canned food that we mush up with a fork, so its about the consistancy of pudding.
And she still goes outside and lays in the sun and chases frogs at the pond, and rolls in the dirt.And plays with her toys, and becomes a wild cat at night, zipping around like a maniac, after something only she sees.
In one way Saturday cant come fast enough for me. In another, im dreading it so much.
Saturday at 8 a.m. she goes to the vet for that shot we hope will shrink the tumor and buy her some more time.
PRECIOUS TIME.
She has so much life in her still, she has so much beautiful, willful, rebellious, strong life, that i just cant put her down yet.
I am trusting her to show me when its time to let her go.
And so far she is showing me she still wants very much to live.
I made the appointment so early so we could try to go and get back before it got soooo hot out, and also so we get it done and behind us.
And then Star will have to eat human baby food for a few days. Second stage meat flavors only.
If the shot works this time.
OH GOD, PLEASE it has to work. PLEASE.
I have to pull myself together before she comes inside. I dont want her to sense that i am upset. I dont want her feel like anything is wrong.
Star...the fight against cancer
Ok..im kinda in a panic and dont really know what to write.
From the start it goes like this...we took Star to the vet at the beginning of this month July 2008 thinking she had a bad tooth.
And YES..i got fooled like that before and lost a cat i cherished to cancer.
But i refused to think it could happen twice, and took her to the vet for a bad tooth.
She is over 12 years old (we think) and we really have no way to know her history at all since apparently neighbors moved and left her and she showed up on our deck looking for food in January of 2007.
So the vet looked in her mouth, got kinda attitudy with me and acted like i should have known my cat had a tumor under her tongue.
If you can get your cat to open up and say ah, then i will bow down to you, because YOU ROCK!
So the she told me that Star needed $3000.00 worth of surgery that would be done in another state. If we had the money i would jump on that oportunity!
But we dont.
So she said the only thing she could do is give Star a shot that MIGHT or MIGHT NOT reduce the tumor for MAYBE a month...and if it worked the tumor would come back and then it MIGHT or MIGHT NOT work again.
So we got that shot...and it WORKED.
And Star gained back her weight, and played, and chased everything that moved, and groomed herself, and showed such a real LOVE for life.
And now to present day...
Tonight my husband was playing with Star and she opened her mouth and he saw the tumor bulging out under her tongue again!
So when i get my check on the first of the month, i have to take her on that 30 mile (each way)torture ride to the vet, trying to calm her all the way. and all the way fearing with all my heart that she wont be making the trip home with me.
And then we have to hope that the shot will work again.
And IF it works, what if it doesnt hold the tumor back for as long, or the tumor become more agressive because of the shot?
Im so afraid for her, and im trying so hard not to feel it, because i dont want her to sense my fears and know somethings wrong.
I want to make it all ok for her.
I have to make it all ok for her.
For all the love and joy she has brought into my life, thats the least i can do for her.
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